When I learn to leave
by King Llanza

 

When I learn to leave
the fear in my body and mind, on the coast
where the horizon had been banished
from the sea’s promise that no mouths are left
unfed, will I still get to walk the edge of the tide line?

Footprints wash away behind me:
collected by the water, then forgotten.

And where the sky once was, wings of sparrows
call me by the name of the ink in my marrow.

In a gesture of farewell, I still wish to rise above.
Not as a husk collected by the waves, but as
a coconut seed settling on a random shore—thriving
after drifting through the world—as I walk the edge of it.

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This poem sprouted in the Philippines. Highlighted lines above are from “El Final” by Leopoldo Castilla in Argentina (“The End”, translated from the Spanish by Alexandra Walter), from the anthology Harvest Moon: Poems and Stories from the Edge of the Climate Crisis.
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King Llanza (he/they) is a queer ecopoet from the Philippines. He was a finalist for the 2021 Gaudy Boy Poetry Book Prize. His poems have appeared in House of Zolo, Quarterly Literary Review Singapore, amberflora, Voice & Verse Poetry Magazine, SAND: Berlin’s English Literary Journal, and Cordite Poetry Review, among others. King holds a MSc in Environmental Science and Ecosystem Management and is currently working for the leading sustainability communications agency in the Philippines.

Photos used on this page are from the collection of Agam Agenda.

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